hmm.
time flies huh.
wa. cant believe one wk's gone so fast
all the practial exams finish.
yeah! hahax.
so stressed up the past few days
coz i always slow den no time do the prac
hehex.
cant believe its over.
it study week break.
errts.
gonna be end of semester.
and, ROD was last week!!!!
wa. so fast lah...
cant believe it!
back to the main topic of this entry.
wa.. was explorin all the blogs..
den see alot of pple toking abt missions
and how excited they are.
haix. sian.
my mum dun allow mi go..
but i really wanna go lah.
ya. fast and pray.
ya. i did that.
but not everyday. becox of sch.
it wont be a good fast.
no use anyway.
wa. how arh.
and now, i jus went for a job interview.
which means i may be working lah
den how to go mission.
siao. sian diao lah.
its like obstacles over obstacles.
i'm really very tired of all these liao
i really dunno wad i can do
everytime
i am feeling so scared and
thinking abt how to tell my mum
abt church gatherings and stuff..
sometimes,
i feel so bad when i lie.
i cant imagine wad's gonna happen
if my mum noe abt it
wad's more, its a sin to lie
but i really dunno wad to do.
argh.
[[i r r i t a t e d]]
how i hope there was someone
who could share my burden.
the person who should didnt.
and sometimes i feel so alone.
from when i fast..
to asking my mum abt
church gathering and stuff.
like i'm the only one going lah.
the other one jus keep her mouth shut.
forever happy go lucky.
like nth to worry.
everything's fine. u're right..
liddat wad can i do lah?
ya. u may say,
i'm the older one.
mus do this and that mah.
BUT..
i am not God lah.
i'm aso a human ok?
i'm not those super woman or wad.
i cant change the situation alone...
i feel myself being tied up.
cannot do anything.
my parents are restricting mi more and more lah
saying that i'm so engrossed in church stuff
until i dun recognise them and all those crap.
sian diao.
eeks.
i'm always the BAD guy...
FINE.
liddat soon i wont be able to take it.
i'll explode and tt's the end of mi.
u wont c mi anymore. hahax.
ah! really wanna go missions lah..
haix. nvm. follow GOd's arrangement bah.
if He wants mi to go, He will provide a way..
yupx.
i'll leave everything to Him...
why should i say i cant when the bible
says i can do all things throught Christ who
strengthens mi?
