deep tots

hav been reading quite alot of blogs these days
haven really been doing much work
haix.
not in a mood.
always.
tired and kind of feeling *empty*
somehow things are different now
i kind of feel so alone at times.
not that i dun hav friends in np

in fact, God has blessed mi with

quite afew great friends
we jus go crazy everyday

joke n laugh etc.
but i realised
wad xuan wen said was really very true
pple are not TT close to each other in poly
they wont always be in my mind
and if i die today,
i know they wont feel very sad aso
get the thing?
yupx. for my other friends
be it jc or sec sch pple.
i still feel very bonded to them
most pple in poly are still
very bonded wif the sec sch friends
esp those sec friends
who are aso in the same poly
and everytime i see this
kind of realise tt
i dun really hav much friends in poly
considering the size
and population of sch
for my sec n jc friends
ya. i may feel bonded to them
but its different now that i'm in poly
really dfferent
i can say we are not as close liao
ya. we may laugh and smile
but deep down in our hearts
we know the feeling is different liao
its life lah. rite?
we dun meet so often
den things are nv like before
the times when we were together
the memories we share...
now its back to reality.

many times,
not only in poly,
aso wif my sec sch friends, churchies
i try very hard to fit in
but sometimes
i simply feel so alone
left out
neither here noe there

u guys mus be scolding mi
serve u right
who ask u go poly
hahax. zhi tao ku chi
but still,
i never regret gg to poly
i do like my course
i like wad i am studying

i would say

everything has its pros and cons bah
its life. rite?
say 'yes'
hahax.
God holds everything
He's in control of everything
and He's there for mi
so what shall i fear?!
" I can do everything through
Him who gives mi strength."

enough of complaining
i'm feeling much better
hahax =)
shall end here.